Wigging out again.
We leave for  Nashville in the morning. Driving. HDS is really homesick. Nashville is home. And the flea market. Fun fun fun, right? I'm just in dread mode. Dreading a car trip. Dreading getting back and going into the hospital. Things I don't understand and don't think I can understand and things that make me upset. I have many many doctors. It feels like doctors are something that happen to me. They are like the oligarchy  of my life. They say different things and think they are science and right and I want them to be right.